I consider myself as very active. I wear a heart monitor from morning to night and at the end of the day, i have burnt over 3000 calories. A lot of time, its 4000 calories. I keep my calorie intake between 1600 to 1800 calories a day. I dont eat sweets, white flours and fatty food. The only carbs i put in my mouth are whole grains and complex.
I am currently doing P90X. I am on week 6. I have been working out at least 4 days a week for over 4 years. I am now working 6 days a week with this program. My cholesterol count is 132, and I have 28% body fat.
I weigh 162 pounds and measure 5'3". I am a size 8-10. I have a flat stomach despite having had 5 children.
For some people, those stats sound good. But for me, I am sick and tired of them. I LOOK big. I know i am muscular, but there are NO definitions to my muscles. I am so tired of looking like i weigh 200 pounds on pictures, and I am not kidding, please believe me. I dont want to be a size 2, or loose weigh 120 pounds. I just want to look decent on pictures. I have big arms because they are muscular. I look fat because i have a DD chest (and no i didnt "make" it this way) and I often have to wear x large top that end up making me look pregnant. I just want to look as healthy as I feel....
I plainly look "fat". I am tired of people telling me i am big because I am muscular. I DONT want to look big!! I dont train to be big. I was told many times it is my body type, but i have a hard time believing it... i use to weigh 110 pounds.
I just want to know ... what can I do? whatever I do , i never loose weight. I tried starving. No success, i tried eating only 500 calories less than i burn (was told i dont eat enough) and i didnt loose either (actually, i gain weight VERY easily, yet, i cant loose, even when i tried 2 hours of intense cardio a day, i didnt loose)
I know there has to be something i do wrong; i am tired of always being the one that work her ass off and never seeing results. I know that fat loss only happens when there is fat to loose, and my body fat index is in the healhty range, but i cannot believe that a 160 pounds woman that looks so "big" has NO fat to loose.
I am just at loss....
I am currently doing P90X. I am on week 6. I have been working out at least 4 days a week for over 4 years. I am now working 6 days a week with this program. My cholesterol count is 132, and I have 28% body fat.
I weigh 162 pounds and measure 5'3". I am a size 8-10. I have a flat stomach despite having had 5 children.
For some people, those stats sound good. But for me, I am sick and tired of them. I LOOK big. I know i am muscular, but there are NO definitions to my muscles. I am so tired of looking like i weigh 200 pounds on pictures, and I am not kidding, please believe me. I dont want to be a size 2, or loose weigh 120 pounds. I just want to look decent on pictures. I have big arms because they are muscular. I look fat because i have a DD chest (and no i didnt "make" it this way) and I often have to wear x large top that end up making me look pregnant. I just want to look as healthy as I feel....
I plainly look "fat". I am tired of people telling me i am big because I am muscular. I DONT want to look big!! I dont train to be big. I was told many times it is my body type, but i have a hard time believing it... i use to weigh 110 pounds.
I just want to know ... what can I do? whatever I do , i never loose weight. I tried starving. No success, i tried eating only 500 calories less than i burn (was told i dont eat enough) and i didnt loose either (actually, i gain weight VERY easily, yet, i cant loose, even when i tried 2 hours of intense cardio a day, i didnt loose)
I know there has to be something i do wrong; i am tired of always being the one that work her ass off and never seeing results. I know that fat loss only happens when there is fat to loose, and my body fat index is in the healhty range, but i cannot believe that a 160 pounds woman that looks so "big" has NO fat to loose.
I am just at loss....