In the best of times, I am a pretty dramatic person. It's just the way I am and after 39 years I don't think it will change although I am better than I was 20 years ago. Now when I am cutting and low calorie and overtrained this emotional state is MAGNIFIED. Basically, right now, I am a mess. Depressed, crying, dissatisfied with my life, snappy and generally a real unpleasant person to be around. I don't like me right now.
Mel, you compete in women BB competitions. The fire flies from your heart. The fire flies from your hands. It has sculpted who you presently are, and who you will be.
You have been in this position or a like position before, haven't ya, hon?
Getting competition lean, can separate the men from the boys, and women from the girls. This isn't simply lowering body fat to healthy levels, this is reducing body fat extremely low to compete, and the measures taken in diet can be rather serious, and the sided effects can make many whimper like a baby and back out--cause they can not handle the "side effects" of themselves that cutting to this level brings.
But, not you.
You have done this before:
Ignore the comments about seeing a doctor. You don't need one. You are the doctor. The doctor is already in da' house. You have an obsession few would understand, and you carry all the medications for it, young lady.
For every side effect of you, you have the correct prescription medication.
You are doing something you love. You are loving yourself by doing it.
Sometimes love hurts especially when the body isn't loving you back, cause' it has a different "internal" agenda then your outward desire. Therefore, it gives you symptoms of its dissatisfaction. But, it doesn't know best, though it thinks it does. The space between your ears knows what's best.
Through your body's dissatisfaction will bring your satisfaction.
YOU know yourself the BEST. You already know WHY you have these symptoms, don't you, hon?
A lot of persons cannot maintain a weight training and dieting lifestyle, because sometimes it associates pain. To many excuses and not enough answers or mediated answers to complications. To a point, there is truth behind the old saying: No pain no gain. Do not complain. You are on the plane of the sane and rule your domain.
Does anyone have any suggestions? Forget adding in food.
This is a mistake, in the sense of opening your mind with your diet parameters in mind, and using foods (that fit) to assist with contentment and personal fullness.
What did you do before? What makes it different now?
I will provide some suggestions, but first open up your diet a bit more, and lets take a look at it, and use some foods (that fit) to you advantage.
I feel invisible and unloved today.
Do not feel unloved. You are loving yourself with what you are doing. Few reach this level. Call on your
heart it has been there from the
start.
Take flight on your heart, it will pick you up as your fitness friend, assist in taking you home, where few are able to roam.
Be back in a bit.......I have more thoughts for you.
Best wishes
Chillen