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Hey everyone,

I lost 40 pounds or so over this year and about 8 weeks ago and 20 lbs from my goal wieght, I went off the deep end bad. I started binge eating worse then ever and put back 30 lbs in 8 weeks. I'm so f**ked up about it. But I'm letting it go and starting back on my journey today. I haven't been posting but I occasionally have been lurking around here and it has been very painful. All I have to say is gaining wieght is easier then losing wieght! The last thing I wanted to do is post this so I figured it was the best thing I could do. This has been one hell of a year...

I'm going back to the gym and eating healthy.
 
It's not the number of times you fall off the wagon, it's the number of times you get back on that counts. Welcome back.
 
It happens to the best of us, just get back on track and forget about the weight gain.

Good to see you again James!

:)
 
HollywoodBlvd said:
Hey everyone,

... I started binge eating worse then ever and put back 30 lbs in 8 weeks. I'm so f**ked up about it....I occasionally have been lurking around here and it has been very painful.
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I'm SO sorry about that :( I can imagine how disappointingly painful it must feel. I know you have worked incredibly hard in the past and were so proud of your accomplishment.

You just have to pick yourself right up and know that you have what it takes to lose it all again. Starting over will be hard but think about how great it will feel to get back to where you came from.

Good luck!!!
 
Good job at being so honest and letting others know how you messed up. It's nice to know that you're not the only one that sometimes has to start over.

~Nicole
 
HollywoodBlvd said:
Hey everyone,

I lost 40 pounds or so over this year and about 8 weeks ago and 20 lbs from my goal wieght, I went off the deep end bad. I started binge eating worse then ever and put back 30 lbs in 8 weeks. I'm so f**ked up about it. But I'm letting it go and starting back on my journey today. I haven't been posting but I occasionally have been lurking around here and it has been very painful. All I have to say is gaining wieght is easier then losing wieght! The last thing I wanted to do is post this so I figured it was the best thing I could do. This has been one hell of a year...

I'm going back to the gym and eating healthy.
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I am so sorry for your frustration. I would however like to point a question or statement out about your situation. I remember from before that your caloric intake was very low and your exercise output was pretty high. This could very well led to the mental and physical breakdown and desire to binge and explain the degree of what gain you go back. I train less and eat more during my cutting phases and am a much smaller girl. It could be something you think about, regardless though good luck honey.
 
Thanks everyone. I've been in a real bad way lately and it feels good to be back. Thanks so much for the support. You may be right theleip.

I'm pretty lost and kinda don't even know where to start. I'm gonna get up in the morning and do a medium treadmill and lift a bit. I have been training these 8 weeks but my heart has not been into it. The food has been the issue. I got clean and sober years ago and I just hate dealing with the food now. It's like everything I love is taken away. My personality is so addictive by nature; either I'm training like a maniac and eating great or I'm trying to commit suicide at McDonald's, no grey area. Never has been. I've had succes in OA because it deals with the addiction but I never stick at it like I have sobriety. It's like my partying got so bad that I ended up in jail but the food is so sneaky.

Luckily I'm healthy I just had a complete physical, everything is awesome, even my cholesterol is 145. So I'm taking it as second chance from God because a lot of people who eat addictively have diabetes and high cholesterol.

Anyway, this thread is painful and ego deflating but I really need help.
 
Glad to see you back in the game bud! I was wondering what happened to you. It happens to all of us at some point. Good luck to you man and I am sure you have tons of support here.
 
you have got to be my brother from a different mother (or however that clever saying goes)

Same thing for me, got to 180, got burnt out, school picked up, holiday season, blah blah blah i could go on, but you get the picture. Woke up yesterday, had been off the scale for about a month fearing what the number would be, 203! DAMNET!!

Ohwell, back on the wagon for me, got a good leg workout in yesterday, ran 4 miles this morning, went and stocked the fridge up with healthfood and we shall see what happens. Good luck man, don't give up.
 
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