Also: being angry and frustrated feels better than the void.
Me too, LaMa. You're right. We're not stupid- we're human. At least we are trying. I hadn't heard of Anhedonia but can see that is how I get from time to time. I connect it with mild depression. Let's hope this passes soonI hate that I keep making the same mistakes over and over again.
I think looking at this from the perspective of CBT would help me. I have anxiety, overeat, it feels soothing and knocks down the anxiety some, so I do that again next time, and I make a feedback loop (like Em says where I'm stuck on repeat) where I've trained myself to soothe with food. But now I am anxious about how much weight I've gained, so I try not to overeat, but I don't have a healthy loop in place to replace the bad-for-me coping strategy of eating to self soothe. Some things I want to try: not buying food I especially want to overeat, do a soothing type of exercise when I get stressed, journal, research healthier strategies like maybe a less strict version of mindful eating, only eat when I'm genuinely hungry and have a list of other stuff to do instead, maybe let myself eat the soothing thing after I earn it through exercise, and I especially need to pause and see if I can tell why I am upset. I need a strategic plan like this like you have your food plan, I think, and I need to experiment to see what works for me. I know I can slowly and painfully lose the weight again counting every calorie, but I want to train myself this time to have a positive loop that I can almost always stick to.We´re not stupid people so why does it keep playing out the same way? September isn´t over yet and I was going to be kind to myself in September so I´m going to say that being human is just messy and complicated. Spock would agree.
I totally agree. I think you do a great job of continually coming back to the healthy choices even if you slip here and there and that's what's important!Oh well: all I can do is keep trying. Walk. Drink water. Sleep. Eat things I enjoy. Get up off the couch even when gravity doesn´t want me to. Do things that make me feel useful. Keep getting on that scale even if it´s showing unpleasant numbers.
So true. I talk about it with patients almost daily. So many of them developed back/neck/shoulder problems just because they lost their normal, "natural" activities. And it influences both body and mind. And then the mind influences the body again so its a double whammy.I miss my community and feel sadly cut off from so much of what built me up before. I am always trying to look on the bright side and finding other ways of building myself up, but it isn't always easy.
Nothing specific but the weather should be glorious (sunny, low 20s) so I think I'll finally try a long hike I've had my mind set on for a while now. And today I want to go into town to buy a desk calendar and a bunch of stickers to award myself for... not for good days because I'd always be too critical to award myself one, but for steps in the right direction. Walking my 2 hours. Drinking 3 liters of water or herbal tea (other drinks are allowed but don't count toward the total). Cooking a batch of fresh food. Eating three real meals rather than replacing one with chocolate/icecream/chips. Planning something social with a friend. Trying a new restaurant. Doing anything I was putting off. Chores that take more than 20 minutes. Leaving the city during weekeds. Hell, even airing my apartment more regularly and more thoroughly, given how strongly I react to house mites on my blood test. My apartment more than fulfills the mite avoidance rules but that's no good if you don't air, clean, and dust like a maniac. Definite room for improvement on all three fronts So... maybe I make a long list of healthy things to do and I get a sticker on days I do at least three of them?Hope you have something fun planned for the weekend, hon xo