Hello everyone, my name is Adam. I am 15 years old and I am a little on the chubby side, which I don't think is too much weight. I weigh 175 pounds and I do have quite a bit of belly fat, and those terrible man boobs. Now they aren't huge and jiggly. I usually feel embarrased at school about my weight so I wear sweaters because it hides it a little bit, and I often get in trouble on purpose so that I can be away from my peers so that they have no reason to make fun of me, doing such things also raises my self-esteem because people don't look at me for my weight but only how much trouble I can get in. I have terrible grades, I can do much better, but I don't even see a reason to because of the fact that I would rather have a high self-esteem insead of a low self-esteem and good grades. I sometimes think of running away and never coming back because when one person says something that is meant to put me down, I take it too hard because I am an implosive person. I just don't say anything back and I go somewhere else. If someone was to call me fat, I usually get thoughts of suicide, but I think to myself that this is all in my mind and I should calm down, I don't like to put others down because I think of the way they will be embarrased and I know how much it hurts. The people that make fun of me don't hear a word from me, because I know they only do it because it is "cool". Sorry for rambling on, I know this is only to introduce myself but I thought I would give a little bit of background.
Adam Here :)
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